best of me

my right side of my mouth and throat has become paralysed. it hurts even when i try to talk. but yet i cannot stop eating. very annoying. oh and amanda bought me liang teh today! haha as disheartening as she can be, that was already a rather sweet gesture of her i guess. impromptu dinner with amanda, kw plus sumei. i wanna use an slr to take artsy photos too!

on a more solemn and serious note, i lately, more than ever, have noticed that my pool of friends have decreased by a significant number. it's not that they died or we quarreled. i guess it's the fact that everyone is like horribly in love nowadays and would rather spend every single cent and second with their other half.

oops, sensitive issue, in case some people [which i would reckon a whole lot of ppl's feet will] might think the shoe fits them.

haha, but im not bitter. AM I?!

okay on an even more solemn beyond solemn note, 2 tests next week. law and stats. omg im so not gonna pull through this week.

when i grow up

came home slightly later than usual.

felt a little weird when the folks didnt call to see where was i, you know, like concerned calls. so i reached home and they were like realllly sound asleep, with a little lamp still switched on. when i was much younger i usually left a light on when i had to sleep alone and they were against having lights on when one's asleep, for whatever reasons.

so i switched off the little lamp for them and closed the door, trying to be as quiet as possible while doing so.




no, i didnt like the reverse of roles.

i bet it's bruises all over your face tonight

wished i was among the audience, t.i is damn hot.

besides 13th feb is a friday, it also happens to be daddy's day.

[btw dont be so alarmed by a fri the 13th, you're gonna get another one in march. if you look properly, the dates/day for feb is exactly the same for march.]

birthday dinner!

longevity buns. super cute!

that's a xiao long bao. ate like 2 before i remembered i was supposed to take a photo and yes, that is how much i live xlbs

meat

fish

so 14/2 almost saw me going to school alone.

i think i gotta start preparing myself for the day to come when i'll be all alone in lecture.

well, if it's any consolation, loners are usually interesting people.

kinda glad i had amanda's company over the phone today. talking/smsing with her made things a lot easier. and yl's too, although i remember she didnt reply my last msg, haha

well, friends in need!

met up with jo/xl/kim.

chicken rice at random katong. then over to siglap and found this cozy small restaurant with a friendly lady boss and staff.

serves german food but was already full by then, intention was to only get some beeeeer~ haha

as good as erdinger.

had to order a fudge to go along. but sadly this version of the fudge is rather light.

kimmie kim kim. she's very very funny. the way she says stuff is so matter-of-fact yet horribly funny. and i wanna have her hair because its so bloody thick! i also remember asking her to thin it when we were sec 3. haha

really dont know so happy for what. it's really ridiculously happy lor

after the beer we went over for some starbucks. it was a good do-nothing-but-gossip session. takes one's mind off so much stuff, especially stupid school.

the night abruptly ended when daddy offered to pick me up.

woah, it's 410am!

desperate attempt

right now i wish Elite was for real. then i would have logged on and found someone else who had been through rmit mgmt accting so i can ask them about my tutorial. alternatively, i could search for any past tutorials or answers uploaded onto the central learning resources, also known fondly as the CLR. then we would be a world where technology enables a better education for all.







and all the patent money.

that's what friends are for

i'm just afraid the army arrests me for this.

cant believe i'm saying this but for the first time in many many days, i'm actually quite happy today =)



mk opened up his exclusive golden gates for us to mj!!! omg missed mj-ing with all the experts haha. okay so i lost 5 bucks and in the 15 days that i've gambled, i've NEVER won money.. but i'm happy today, despite the loss. we managed to play proper mahjong, from east wind to north wind.


she won 5 bucks from me. and they kept ban lucking it's annoying.

well, it felt really good to meet up with them. it's so comfortable. havent seen the guys since 2008, but jol and qq's missing though. and mk only gave me a few sips of erdinger . #%*&&^*%^$#!



'eh the more i wash the tiles, the more i think it looks like the colour of the hotdogs leh'
'then you see ah, on top is the hotdog, below is the rice. HAHAHAHAHAH'


her name is yoyo. and she looked totally bored the whole day.

i think i can never comprehend how much they dread their life now. but thinking what i have in store for the week bores me too. and this semester is full of numbers and figures i dont think i can pull through? i know i've mentioned this for the 2982498346th time, but im really not confident. i havent bought the textbooks, havent revised. and the lecturers keep pointing out the high failure rates it's terrifying.


also have to point out how skinny he is. i think he is 35 kg now. wanted to punch him so bad when he said 'you have no idea how difficult it is to gain weight'
he is also good to murder. just kill and stuff it in a small box, easy to dispose of.


i miss them already! i wonder when will be the next time we meet?


p/s gotta thank tqt for the candid shots. although later she fell asleep while we were mj-ing





p/p/s/


been reading ontd alot lately. i still think she's damn hot (and slutty in a good sense). and she always manages to look fake, like a barbie doll kind of beauty fake. and she works out so much check out the leggs.

the list goes on and on

this is not the first time i've seen this but the first time i saw it it was spinning anticlockwise. then the second time i looked at it, it became clockwise. is it my brain or did the woman really start spinning different directions?

[yl just told me this is a fake. I KNEW IT LOR!!!]

im sleepy but not ready to sleep yet.

i've been so bored i accquired a new hobby. internet reversi through the games section that comes installed on your computer.

reversi is my favourite board game. it's just plain black and white, unlike checkers or chess. the logic behind reversi is also simple, but you need every bit of brain juice when you're playing it.

you know what's the marvellous and perfect thing to reversi?

it's that you never know when you're winning or not until the last move. you can dominate the board all the way through the middle of the game but if your opponent is smart enough or you just have to make a single wrong move, you can lose just like that. like there's always this chance for you to turn the tables anytime. and you really gotta think about the consequences and what's the next move when you decide where to place your, er, chip? there is always this possibilities are endless, it's amazing. okay i dont know about chess but i dont think checkers is half as fun as reversi.


and it isnt necessary that once you occupy all 4 corners you'll win. earlier on i was playing against this japanese and was she good. even when i took the 4 corners of the board, she won by a significant number. to think i was leading, pfft.


i think i'm falling sick soon. i actually feel cold now.





eh, if you're up for a semi-scary treat, you can click on the enlarged version and see jo's eyes pop out of the sockets. when i clicked it i was kinda scared by what i saw.

will blog about the 15 days of cny when it's over. i think i will.

not inspired.

i cant get to sleep.



i suspect it's the very filling company dinner a few hours ago.
my first cny company dinner, at a private kitchen. woah, the ambience was great, it was so private and un-commercial. the red packets certainly came as a surprise. but i made a mistake at work today. a grave one. i was told to pray that nothing happens or that would be the end of me.

sigh, thinking about it i hate how brainless i was.

my lesson's from 10 to 1 and im still horribly awake at 1am.
means tmr im gonna be late and wont be concentrating in lectures. never did anyway, all i do is sit in lecture and stare at the clock and be amazed at how slowly time can crawl. for 3 hours.

doesn't help that tmr is stats.

i wonder how i used to type such long entries but now, i always end up not knowing what to type for my next line. i also realised how self-absorbed one can be when she starts to indulge in excessive self-pitying. but of course, knowing and doing something about it are two seperate entities. maybe i should really stop ranting about how my life is boring. well, or at least try to? i can also try to tell myself that my life is only boring if i make it out to be boring.

sigh, see what not being able to sleep + awake in middle of the night + lessons at 10 am + not-to-mention-it's-stats does to me.


OH YA.
while i've been saying i want to lose weight, i've been losing nothing but HAIR!!!!
omg, everyone's like telling me what little hair i have left and i've noticed lately how SIGNIFICANTLY MY HAIR IS FALLING AT EVERY CHANCE POSSIBLE.
and no, i didnt even diet and my amt of white hair is astonishing!!!!! worrying results in white hair right? but what have i been worrying about? i have no idea!!!!

and and maybe i sigh too much. should stop sighing.
ok, new 2009 resolution! which, by end feb 2009 i would forget. haha

horribly bored.



i've been at home for two days now.madeleine is gonna come back in two days' time. hope we'll arrange some time to meet! sigh i really mean to blog but my boring life cannot provide me with anything to tell. ok shall go eat and pile on those kilos.

it's not like london's calling you.

slight alcohol in my blood last night and im denied of more sleep after 9am. it always happens. had no idea that plans were cancelled today. sigh, was so very looking forward to it. but ah york isnt replying me. sigh =(

i always thought (good) friends would meet up on cny. surely out of the 15 days there would be just one day for each other? apparently not. no, i'm not grumbling,i cant grumble right? about ppl not wanting to meet me. it's just that i wonder where we're placed on each other's mind sometimes. whether any of us is important enough to be placed on the list, or to make initial plans come true.

and the ppl i've met for the past week have been great ppl, appreciate your putting me on the 'to-meet' list. although well, eveytime we meet to gamble, i've been losing money to you.