not inspired.

i cant get to sleep.



i suspect it's the very filling company dinner a few hours ago.
my first cny company dinner, at a private kitchen. woah, the ambience was great, it was so private and un-commercial. the red packets certainly came as a surprise. but i made a mistake at work today. a grave one. i was told to pray that nothing happens or that would be the end of me.

sigh, thinking about it i hate how brainless i was.

my lesson's from 10 to 1 and im still horribly awake at 1am.
means tmr im gonna be late and wont be concentrating in lectures. never did anyway, all i do is sit in lecture and stare at the clock and be amazed at how slowly time can crawl. for 3 hours.

doesn't help that tmr is stats.

i wonder how i used to type such long entries but now, i always end up not knowing what to type for my next line. i also realised how self-absorbed one can be when she starts to indulge in excessive self-pitying. but of course, knowing and doing something about it are two seperate entities. maybe i should really stop ranting about how my life is boring. well, or at least try to? i can also try to tell myself that my life is only boring if i make it out to be boring.

sigh, see what not being able to sleep + awake in middle of the night + lessons at 10 am + not-to-mention-it's-stats does to me.


OH YA.
while i've been saying i want to lose weight, i've been losing nothing but HAIR!!!!
omg, everyone's like telling me what little hair i have left and i've noticed lately how SIGNIFICANTLY MY HAIR IS FALLING AT EVERY CHANCE POSSIBLE.
and no, i didnt even diet and my amt of white hair is astonishing!!!!! worrying results in white hair right? but what have i been worrying about? i have no idea!!!!

and and maybe i sigh too much. should stop sighing.
ok, new 2009 resolution! which, by end feb 2009 i would forget. haha