panic attacks like a crack in the levy

can't stand it.


twelve more days and i would be expected to write essays like how i used to, without having practiced.

my fear is pretty absurd.
it's the kind whereby i constantly say i'm panicking but i can never seem to do enough.
or perhaps, do nothing at all.

it's like standing in the middle of a really wide road alone in the dark, with this huge trunk coming my way with blinding headlights. but all i can and would do is to just stand there, too weak to move, with hands shaking.

this is tough.

Tale as old as time,Song as old as rhyme

when i was much much younger, beauty and the beast looked so perfect. and everyone wanted to be belle.

now that im 21, im pretty amazed at how i never thought that if the beast [who is damn cute btw] never became a prince, how twisted it would be if they ever got married and... have kids. what comes out?

disney is such a cult, but me favourite's still cinderella. i think it's because it was the first disney cartoon i came across, and perhaps the secret fact that i'd like to believe that those who get ill-treated will someday strike it rich.

snow white is just dumb, so frail and weak and dumb. and it also kinda implies that IF you're pretty you can charm everyone, from all the 7 dwarfs to the brainless prince is at her beck and call.

sleeping beauty is another good for nothing. only sleeps.okay, granted she is under a spell!

and ariel can only blame herself for her naivety, go around trusting unknown people just cos the witch made herself look young and pretty.

but cinderella fought for her dream, worked hard enough, fought to go to the ball and yay happy ending!

come to think of it, disney classics didnt seem too classic to me now.
i'm also in an unbelievably bad mood of late. i snap at every possible chance and in my mind cursing anyone i see.