found a small lump on my face late last year. went to the skin centre only in march this year. initially i thought it'll be better to live with it than to remove it. wasn't the first time i had such an operation, had one a decade ago and the scar was huge. it was really bad back then, was barely eleven. so it was like a trauma to me and it's partial anesthetic which makes it all the more scary.
but the more i thought about it, the more i look in the mirror to see the green lump, the more irritated i got. i didnt know how i convinced myself either. but i guess sometimes the fear of smth more serious is a big driving factor. it's like going to the dentist WHICH reminds me my decayed front tooth got more decayed and it's quite painful. now i have to convince myself to go to the dentist. sigh why is my life full of agony!!
okay so initially i was scheduled for next fri when i called on monday but they said there was a slot for today so i bravely took it. haha. 8am!!
got there before 8, waited and up to the point when i was about to go in the nurse suddenly told me that i needed to sigh a consent form cos i was THREE MONTHS AWAY FROM BEING A MINOR. #$%^&^%^$%
lucky daddy managed to come down at 9 ish to sign it. and i was supposed to go for a pre-counselling trip before this . -.- how come i didnt had one when i was ten!!! but anyway they made it sound super super serious by warning that i may be disfigured and the scar will be ugly.
the scar will be damn ugly for THREE months and depends on my skin condition whether it will heal nicely or not. now this makes me scared. what if it is a caterpillar-like scar?!!! =(
remind me not to eat anything fried and bad for scars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so daddy promptly left and i had to climb onto the operation bed or smth. oh! forgot to mention that the doctor was a very very very young female and she was very very very pretty. her skin is flawless! and following behind was this male doctor i think he was her trainee or smth and he is, im not kidding, rather goodlooking. like tanned and well-built. this is so unfair, how can doctors be so unbelievably young, pretty and goodlooking?!!! oh and there was also one more assistant who also happened to be very very pretty and her voice is super sweet and she's damn nice! okay i cannot help but admit nice-looking nurses who look sweet and gentle are very comforting indeed. not those very fierce and stern looking kind that will punch you if you make even a small sound.
oh did i mention i had to wear a shower cap and blue plastic wraps that cover my entire feet? nice.
the injection was painful and took realllllly long.like an endless needle going through
and then they started. ok physically when they were removing it i couldnt really tell but the thoughts that ran through the head was the torturing part. and the SEWING UP PART.
omg the sewing up part was THE HORROR!
NOT ONLY CAN YOU HEAR THE SKIN BEING SEWN, IT WAS CONSTANTLY TUGGING MY SKIN. THEN I THOUGHT 'OMG MY SKIN IS BEING CUT OPENED AND NOW BEING SEWN AND TUGGED'
it was so horrible i wanted to die on the spot, and even if it was 2-3 stitches IT FELT LIKE FOREVER!!!!
and in the midst of tugging my skin they started to chat and i suspect they were talking in morse code, to well, not make me panick about my tugged skin. i heard phrases like 'where is it?' followed by a laugh and then the [very goodlooking] male doc said smth like 'I CANT FIND IT' which didnt really fit into the nature of the conversation. they were apparently talking about going to a social medical event and his report or smth.
and yea, that doctor sure saw me skin-deep.
in reality i know the operation took last than hald an hour, if not fifteen mins, but it was like an eternity when you're the one lying there, being cut and sewn.
oh and im so weak im an embarrassment. when i walked out of the room i felt a little giddy so i sat down. then i had this almighty urge to puke. so another very nice lady took a bag for me but the only thing i was capable of puking out is some stomach acid?i dont know what is that but its the kind of thing that comes out when you feel like puking but you've not eaten anything so liquid from nowhere comes out. and at some point my heart was beating quite fast, it was the kind of feeling that's so uncomfortable i felt like whining and throwing a tantrum and thought i was about to die. but of course, as im a generally sane person i wouldnt have wanted to embarrass myself further.
then they made me lie on the bed for like 20 mins when they said it was ten so i thought at some point they forgotten me. and even took my blood pressure. hah. ashamed of my weakliness. then when i was lying down i suddenly had a tummy cramps. at some point the cramps were quite bad i was breaking out in sweat and had to sit up to feel better.WOAH, the feeling of giddiness with cramps and breaking out in sweat is like damn shiok on a very sadistic level. -.-
when i was about to leave, the very pretty doctor gave a very worried face about whether i can make it alive back home. her worried expression was like, so full of love haha
it's amazing how everyone was so major nice i wonder where they come from or go to usually. even the receptionist who helped me with the appointment was so concerned and caring.
now im dreading next fri when i have to remove the stitches. the cold scisscors press against your skin and when it cuts, you can hear the sound like as if you pull a string to its tightest and then cut it. bahhh
and, when you have alien stuff on your face, everybody just stares at you. even when i look at them they might look away and then when i look somewhere they will sneakily stare again. it's actually quite funny, loving the attention. lol
okay now im feeling occasional stinging pain. is there any food im not supposed to eat to help my scar. kao, i think i dont have to eat anything for the rest of my life.
okay, on to more frivolous and light-hearted stuff.
last saturday the family had sakura lunch buffet but the brother and sis-in-law and joshua couldnt come for apparent reasons. speaking of which joshua's full month's like next sat, how fast.
took J to the hairdresser and i have to say kids' hairdressing is very lucrative! just install tv in front for the kinds to divert their attention and ka-ching, 20 bucks per head. what hair style?! dont even need to cut that much hair even.
oh ya, since spray was free, we sprayed her hair pink haha. it's not very obvious in the pics
later that evening, met up with jo's, xl and her parents for a beeeer.
then picked amanda on the way then off to corinne's 21st party!
she has a disney/superheroes theme and she's tinkerbell, with wings constanly shoving into innocent parties' faces.
stalkerish photo but spot peterpan aka the boyfriend. haha i think this is a cruel test of how much a guy is willing to go for the gf. so to test how great your bf's love is for you, hold theme parties!
the other room has ping pong and pool. i missed playing pool so much!
see xueling's placating smile with me
COMPARE!
SEE!!
the condo's really pretty, cept we got lost and walked round and round a few times. it's not really a condo, i dont know what's the proper term for it. it's houses with like 3/4 levels each and a roof but there're security guards around. it kinda felt like an enclosed town
bamboo grove in middle of nowhere
candid group pic! not that i personally know her but check out storm. lol
there was a post-surprise for corinne at Scarlet's Hotel and we were invited. very embarrassing but it's my first time going to a boutique hotel and it's very errh, couple-y? very love-inducing i guess.
Thurs 14/5
met daph for high-tea dim sum buffet!
i love daph but she is a bad eating partner. NO PORK NO CHICKEN NO DURIAN.
'eh i take two, the rest you eat'
'eh you eat all ah, i dont eat one'
-.-
she takes all he dim sum stuffed with prawns then complains why i didnt eat. so she had to eat 3 siew mais and 3 har kows and used it as an excuse for me to eat everything else.
'eh i ate 6 hor, so you eat!!!'
and so i ate..
3 CHAR SIEW SOHS TO MYSELF
century egg porridge. yummms
salad roll. she took it and demanded that i eat 2!! but it's quite nice though haha
double boiled soup! very yummy
'eh you dont eat lotus?'
'no..'
'you're so weird'
'...'
coming from the one that eats lotus!!!!! who is btw not me.
garlic pork slices!!! omg i wished sumei was here with me!!!!!! DAMN SHIOK. had to like polish off one plate by myself BECAUSE xxx doesnt eat pork. pfft
red bean with banana. didnt like the combination. i love bother seperate but not together. ok la, the worthy thing about daph is she likes red bean, cant eat anything red bean with weiting. haha
i dont know what is this but she found it so awful she stacked the other steamers on top to hide it
EGG TARTS DAMN NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
ITS SO SOFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!
love the mango pudding! i dont eat mango the fruit itself but i love mango pudding hahaha
so we went to vivocity next. walked around, couldnt find a nice top! sigh
ok, onward to even more superficial stuff.
my threadless tee! bought 2, must buy ten more next time haha. i think the two of them forgot they even bought tshirts with me!
yay no more using laptop to charge ipod! but the adpater looks kinda dosgy, wonder if it will blow up =x
and i found this wonderful creation. it's a plug that has TWO jacks so one mp3 connects TWO sets of earphones!!! so that means no need to share one earphone each and you can toally leech other mp3s at without hinder! yay lol
my cheek hurts! ok, tv time!
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