the start of countless birthday celebrations

the first day of July felt different. perhaps promising?
rain is probably an ominous sign but having it come after a draught feels refreshing, no?

i looked through my previous posts and felt i've let myself down for my lack of words lately. i mean i somehow feel that if i were to write a bit more i might balance my mentally unstable mind a bit more so i wont be acting up so frequently.

i think im getting very paranoid these days. i messaged tqt the yesterday then i got upset that she didnt reply. when she said she didnt receive i then realised the msg was in my drafts. haha! but im not gonna tell her that unless she sees this. she has a bad track record anyway. but then again i've always believed that humans are by nature fallible. they always do. and that they cannot be relied upon because they'll never put in a full 100 per cent unless for themselves.

on to more frivolous stuff.

msian highways are the best! the family drove up to genting last week and i got a chance to drive the long stretches of the expressways. OMG IT'S DAMN SHIOK!! the speed limit is like a 110km/h! initally i'd thought that speed for me is impossible but since it was a straight and endless road. the only downside was cars kept overtaking me. it sucks to be overtaken. haha and on occasions when i hit 120km i felt damn wobbly, like am gonna crash anytime. sigh, i still suck =( it's really my dream road. it's one way straight road and very little cars!!! oh and the road shoulder is DAMN WIDE!!! it's like another lane. for a kayu driver like me driving beside the road shlder is a comfort haha. i dont know why but msian roads just feel wider.

and i didnt get honked alot of times!! i only got honked once when i was reversing out. there was once i was about to do a u-turn then the engine stalled!! omg almost died. panicked like siao to restart the engine and slowly turned. the car behind didnt even honk me okay! im very sure in spore my one trip out i will get honked like at least 10 times im not kidding.

on monday i met up with phoebe and madeleine! for dim sum buffet again! haha
missed the two of them sooo much but phoe had to leave early for lessons =( mad and i ended up in bugis and then i saw jessie lim py. haha i was just looking in then i saw her standing there, like i really couldnt believe my eyes. lol madd commented that our way of greeting each other was an exaggeration. but she doesnt know jessie is an exaggeration herself. lol but i like her exaggeration, there's smth so sincere about it, it makes you want to believe in her actions. it was really good seeing her, reminds me of the times we do the silly stuff together.

one more random stuff.
school's pushed a week later due to the aust lecturers not coming in. whoch totally spoilt my plans because i've already booked my venue on the 18th. and on 17th i've great plans too but now on the 17th i've school from 1130 to 1830!!!!!! and 18th i've school till 1530! sigh.

im also not sure if what i want on 18th is what i'm gonna get. haha there's not many ppl on my list. and there's this risk that half of the lot wont come! haha so please dont fail me!

okay im gonna go work my list, the list of things that people ask me for but somehow never got any for me.