all i can and should say is that im decomposing myself from within.

till then.

if you never tell, we should never know

coffee till 5am in the morning. no more javachip, embracing the zen shaker tea introduced by claresta. haha

do you like to read your own blog's archives? i do. all the time actually, it reminds me that while in the midst of complaining nothing's quite changed, subtle and small changes do take place and things you used to always do, somehow just went off your list without much realisation. things you used to care so much about and bothered a great deal suddenly felt very faint, like you could ever hardly recall what happened until you read through them again. ppl you used to hang out with every other day, share secrets and gossip with, are they still here? changes are changes, for better or worse.

i know it sounds funny but sometimes i forget my own age. like seriously. sometimes i think im still 18 haha

oh well, writing in too much light is difficult.

i wanna ba praised from a new perspective

a gazillion thoughts must have ran through my mind and disappeared now as im typing this. but i guess all thoughts must have dissipated at the ultimate thought of results release on thursday.

thursday. gosh. thats five long days away. the thought of everything being settled and fixed is getting to me. the thought of clicking a button and the results will appear at once and i will be forced to accept it is too much to bear. exam results are the most unpredictable things and it always grabs me by the throat.

okay
impromptu plan to meet jojo!!

life is...

okay im officially proclaiming i've hit a bottleneck in life and i've no interest or passion in whatsoever and my quarter-life crisis should be here considering i wouldnt live till 84.


till then, goodnight.




okay i'll prolly blog soon enough cos i have this compulsive need to keep typing actually.

all in a week's work

worked for six days straight and commencing a five day week soon.

gained TWO kg so far and im not joking, just infer from the fact that everyone who met me this week received food from me. i also discovered y's sister was married long in oct and w's sister's wedding is next sunday.

i also realised words are but words if you do not put in any meaning or feelings into them. over the week i had to say many happy birthdays, i love you, congratulations, and happy birthday sayang. ate 3 cupcakes, 1/4 of a 500g cake, 1/2 of a 1kg cake and loadsa rice with oil-soaked lunches.

fav baker's work of art. it's not ice cream or whipped cream, but raspberry cream and it actually bounced.

strawberry and blueberry cupcake is yums!!!

cross section of an empress dowager. i must say the sponge is quite legendary. it jsut melts in your mouth i swear. and the mousse tastes so light and fluffy its almost like ice cream. i really couldnt see beyond the beauty of this cake lies fat, fat, fat.

set up my first xmas tree! but it wasnt me actually cos anything i decorate sucks. pauline decided this year's theme should be gold. surely someone who designs customised cakes will not do too bad a job with trees.

willpower is nothing when you work in places with no lack of exquisite food. for example, the boss bought sushi from mediya the other day. hadnt wanted to eat but it was all involuntary action

woah it was a bomb, the crab's ultra ultra sweet and yummy to the max! haha plus one small box is like what, 26 bucks? it's really small but it's really dope.

and the cream puff was heaven haha it's a really big one, took one for yl. haha

i bought a pair of vans on impulse the other day while shopping for d's present. haha but i love it nonetheless and i think its reallllll pretty. caught a christmas carol and the graphic's is splendid. it's always the kind of christmas that has been instilled since i was young from all the movies. i guess that's what make christmas so dreamy. the snow, the smell, the carols, the lights, the town, the people on the street and the surrealness of it all.

family dinner today, major big plate of calamari plus other high cholesterol food. little j in his fl maclaren

im sick of work already.

everybody must love muse.

Uprising - Muse

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

i somehow feel this song has a very psychotic energy that perks one up.

friday the 13th saw me meeting with S. thought i'd explore orchard central but it turned out to be a big but empty mall again. the shops are really small you dont even have to step in to see what's there. the design is somehow made for you to walk in circles. everyone in the mall was doing the same thing - looking lost, exploring and turning back upon dead end.

there wasn't a lack of restaurants but nothing was horribly outstanding either. settled for crystal jade hk cafe.


we both ordered yuen yang and the moment it came our reactions were exactly the same its funny.



the drink came in a beaker shaped and see the hole in the beaker? the waiter put in dry ice and a bit of smoke came on. so mystical! but nooo, you dont drink from the beaker, you pour it into a really small shots cup.



which is slanted.



well this is indeed novelty but is this not double work? the cleaner will have to wash 2 glasses for one drink and the shots cup is so small i had to keep refilling it. notice S's look of disdain.
the menu wasn't much but the pictures sure looked good so we foolishly ordered the hainanese chicken thinking it'll look the same.


okkay.
well the hot plate did look really good too.



fish



mixed for S. wah sausage and egg [with broken yolk] is major love!
it's pretty filling. i think normal people wouldnt be able to finish it. now that i see these pictures i feel a bit sick.
next to spinelli's. i distinctively remembered their cheesecakes being yummy.








there's two sections. the freezing cold section and the balcony section with smoking area. the balcony has a really nice ambience, i could sit there forever. and it feels like we were above the traffic and the christmas lights all just added to it i guess.

then i figured orchard central wasn't that bad. i like pretty empty malls so i dont have to queue or squeeze plus the toilet's really clean. catching up with S was great and we walked down orchard and decided the christmas lightings werent fantastic, she didnt like the reindeers haha. oh and alot of malls seem to be springing up. 313's f21 looks really big and promising. i bet heeren's gonna close down soon. i remembered the times when going to town meant heeren + cine. is it just me or is it the times?



isnt she adorable? she was wearing the sis's tube. i asked if i could take a picture then she made me take many shots. what a camwhore!

it rained almost the whole day today, i guess rainy weather always makes one think more.
suddenly lady gaga's bad romance is ringing in my head, Gaga Oo-la-la!

i think i've been steadily drowning myself in negativity and extreme pessimism. but to see it optimistically means i've been preparing myself for society and life. i somehow dont see negativity as something that bad, if it is my driving force, then so be it? optimism is not the only way is it? and well if it's anything to go by, at least i dont base myself on other's lives, emotions or thinking. people who do that, tonnes of them, are just sad and better off dead.

everything i do, i do it for myself.

oh on a random note, does anybody have joo chiat for the macdonald's monopoly thing? i dont want the $50 000 i only wanna win an ipod touch haha. is there even sentosa cove in the first place?! because SO many people have marina bay!!!

i spent 10 years untagging photos on fb just now. im still not done cos some doesnt seem to be responding. 50% are fat and unglam ashamed photos i dont want anyone to recognise me by, 80% seems to be drunk pictures, loads of alcohol pictures tagged and tonnes of food pictures. my fb account is a misleading one.

imma a taxidriver man~

impromtu decision to ktv with the bears last night. i have nothing to else to write cos my life's been so boring and nobody bothers enough to date me.

i need to go extend my passport which means i need to take ugly fat face shots i'm never happy with, i need to buy a new battery for my camera because it's [duh] spoilt, i need to worry about my results until dec 3. agony agony. i need to wait until after 24th to see jojo and snowbell. i need to work from mon to fri nonstop nonstop for two weeks. i need to think of what i can fit into to go meet sh laters. i need to stop thinking about constantly eating. manhattan, chippy's,pizza,pasta,jap,nachos,tomato twisters,erdinger,erdinger,hoegarden,pasta,frolick,frolick,frolick,glace,sushi,salmon.

i need to stop being so lazy first by not supporting my chin with a 500ml bottle while im typing this. am i incorrigible or what?

and i've no plans for christmas!!! major lonely. every couple in the world deserves to split. haha, horribly bitter line there but well, that is if i pass my exams first.

the complexities of life. it's a bitch