suddenly i see

jojo is in slumber beside me now. blinghere's abandoned me.


went to 3 golf places and 3 farms today. ikea for poached salmon + wingzz. yum yum.
im going to count my blessings today and say this sat's great. i feel the effort and that's prolly why im not grumbling as much. STILL CANT BELIEVE SHE LET ME GO JUST LIKE THAT THOUGH. but sigh, i think this is about as good as it can get? i dont think anyone will be as considrate and thoughtful as this.

feeling abit sneaky and surreal now. sky's darkening and the lights aint on. its so quiet i can hear a pin drop. craving for sinfulll dessert now now now. kind of silly but i wish today'll never end. also funny cos im not feeling as spiteful as i should or thought i'll be. i guess i miss jojo enough. hahah dont wanna jinx myself but i think im going on a rebound. it's as if i've been brooding and harping on alot of things for the longest time but suddenly you come to the point when you're through with the harping then you might as well just take anything that goes. like having been through the longest tunnel and suddenly you see the exit of the tunnel, the subtle light shining in. or grasping a mega big bunch of balloons [think: up] and then suddenly letting go. you dont lament at the sadness of letting go but more of appreciating the colourful balloons filling up the blue sky at the same time. then you take in a deep deep breath. everything's good...


by now im completely engulfed in darkness, only light comes from this screen. yet i'm experiencing a strange glad feeling. my love's bigger than i thought.
maybe for once i'll just stop focusing on how this day'll never come by again and just be thankful i had it once.


after reading the above paras myself, i suspect im having a heatstroke.
ok imma gonna find a gong and wake the grizzly uppp!