i'm like the ringleader, i call the shots

im doing everything except projects. decided to give myself a reality check by checking the submission dates. and now im so overwhelmed by reality im actually escaping from it. did i mention i sent 4750 smses last month and was beaten by x by 11 smses? damn. i really wanna hit 5000 for once. is it weird that i derive pleasure from sms count?

company dinner last night, food was pretty good. lucky draw-ed 50 bucks cash. i feel pretty blessed and that was it. dont know when i can geddit though. i feel like im living on my toes every week. this sucks. im having a headache. the project wont compile by itself. my eyelids ae so heavy. the date writes 24/2/10. that's 10 more months to christmas.

it's a day short of three weeks. everyone i love who loves me enough should know about this. it was a personal decision to do it. perhaps the last thing to bear witness to my adolescence before my youth depletes. okay make that second last.